Randomness and Thoughts on Pregnancy Number Two
Just plugging along here—we’ve been busy. Lila’s school starts in two weeks, ours starts in three, and we’re moving in between.
We’ve been so busy, in fact, that I realized today that I’m almost to the halfway point in my pregnancy—kind of crazy! I’ll be twenty weeks next week—we’re going in for the big anatomy scan on Wednesday. It’s true what people way (so far, at least)—the second pregnancy seems to be going by much more quickly than the first. I just don’t *think* about it that much, whereas with the first, I can remember being consumed by thoughts of pregnancy and babies ALL. THE. TIME.
I feel like I’ve gotten bigger, earlier this time around…although when I snapped this picture before heading to the gym and compared it to my twenty week picture from the first pregnancy, I realized there isn’t that much difference:
I feel like I’m carrying lower this time, which is making me look more “pregnant” than the first time around, when it took me a while to really pop out. I also feel like I’m still a *little* bit at that strange point in pregnancy where you can kind of “control” how pregnant you look by what you wear, how much you’ve eaten that day, etc. But those days are coming to a close, Ican tell—it won’t be long before I just look PREGNANT. And you know…as with the first time, I welcome that. I loved a lot of my first pregnancy, and this second one has been the same. In fact, I think it’s been a little more enjoyable just since I feel more comfortable in terms of what to expect, what’s happening, etc. I think being pregnant with Lila induced a lot of anxiety in me—how could it not?! Some of that is still there this time, but a lot of it has been replaced by simple excitement.
That being said, the fact that I’m not thinking about my pregnancy quite as much hits me out of the blue sometimes when I realize…oh right, I have to give birth. There’s going to be a baby. We need to get ready for another child to enter the family. I think at this point in my first pregnancy, I’d bought a lot of stuff—the crib, clothes, etc.
Uhhh…I haven’t bought a single thing for baby number two, except for that Block Island onesie. Maybe he can wear that home from the hospital?
Exercise has been going well. I ran on the treadmill yesterday for three miles straight:
…which I probably won’t do again for another week. I’m just taking exercise, and running, especially, day by day and week by week. It still feels good, so I’m still doing it, but I know that will end eventually.
Food cravings—nothing too crazy. A lot of stuff just hasn’t sounded very good to me, which I think has to do with the heat of summer. All I want is fruit—pineapple, watermelon, nectarines…I could eat that all day. And I had a strange hankering for Tofurkey the other day at lunch. As I stated on Instagram, pregnancy is weird.
Other than that…we’re hanging in there. Lila seems to go back and forth on excitement about the baby, non-interest, and explicit displeasure. Yesterday she told us that she didn’t want the baby to come because he would “make a big mess at the table.” Never mind the fact that she spills her milk every other day. We’re trying to talk about it with her some, but not too much—I don’t want her to feel like she’s being forced to talk about it, or like the baby is displacing her already.
Hope your Saturday is going well!